Thursday. 2nd October.
Listening to: Santa Monica. By: Savage Garden.
Event: Can't sleep after coming back from town.
Came back at around 2 plus in the morning. Its friday now. Early in the morning and i started crying by looking at her pictures with the song 'Santa Monica'. Cried like nobody's business. I misses her and I truly love her. I maybe an idiot to everybody. I don't care because i cant hide my feelings anymore. I can't take it anymore, i reached my limits. I would seriously tell her ' Would you let me love you again? I know i did some wrong doings which you don't like in the past. But I'm a changed person now. I really wish i could love you once more, care for you once more, be there for you once more, pamper you once more and look after you for once more.' But i don't have the chance to say all that to her. Because i know she will never ever meet me again. I would really want to say a deeply sorry from the bottom of my heart. I'm really sorry.
Mood: Unbelievable. Words can't explain how am i feeling right now. Just want to say ' I'm sorry.'
4:17 AM
